Am I a heretic in your eyes? Sometimes I ask myself, why is it so different? But I am really a heresy, I don’t know if this is the right choice, but this is definitely not affectation, because in such harsh treatment, still someone to accompany me.
Sometimes, I sit on a chair in the dormitory alone, just watching people pass by, thinking nothing, sometimes everything seems to stop in front of me, and sometimes it just flows away. Seemingly busy day, seems to have nothing done, life a lifetime of busy whether will also fall a accomplish nothing? I think of the ideological and political that class: choose ordinary but not mediocre life or vigorous work, it seems to choose which is not so simple.
To live is to have a goal? The answer seems to be yes, but there are some people who do things that outsiders would think they do for their own ends. The good guy went to the bottom and got a very disappointing answer: I don’t know why I’m doing this, I’m not doing it for any purpose, I just like it. There are people in real life, and I’m not sure if I’m one of them, but maybe I should be.
Every life should be full of hope, and every life should also be real. The world should be composed of “reality”, but “society” does not allow it. Most of the two “reality” are filled with the fog like Kilimanjaro, and the originally warm communication becomes not so natural.
I don’t know much about yourself, don’t know why there are so many question to ask and concerns, sometimes I am very tired, but still, I am eager to team life, but I have to say I prefer independence is also a person to solve the problem, not for YaoGong desire, just like this, it’s from the heart, if the world has two I, we both must be also is growing, for sure.
Love is as difficult as it is brilliant, and people have to have more than one unique, who are different, what you think is largely not what I think, what you want to do, may be what I am tired of. But this is supposed to be “real”.
I often search for a rule, a rule to live well, but things change, I can never get a satisfactory response.
Have you ever had that experience? From a place to observe a group of people, you will feel that they are very happy, because their faces are showing their real faces, whether they are crying or laughing. Moved by their own will also get a small happiness. But I haven’t felt like this for a long time.
In fact, I haven’t observed life seriously for a long time. Sometimes life is in chaos unconsciously, which makes you unable to control it. What’s the reason? Because we are human beings, we are not satisfied with the status quo, and we always want to change something.
How long has it been? How long has it been since you took care of yourself? What in the end is wrong, expect things always just expect. It’s a mess.
I wrote another incoherent diary, thinking about my behavior, but this is what makes me different from others. I can’t sum it up with a single word or a single summary, but I clearly know the existence of this kind of situation, and I really agree with this “only”.
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